Surprised by Joy: The Shape of My Early Life

· HarperOne · Narrated by Hugh Bonneville
Audiobook
Eligible
This book will become available on December 8, 2026. You will not be charged until it is released.

About this audiobook

C. S. Lewis, the beloved author of Mere Christianity and The Chronicles of Narnia, tells the remarkable true story of his journey from atheism to Christian faith in this classic spiritual autobiography.

Long before he became one of the most influential Christian writers of the twentieth century, C. S. Lewis was a grieving boy, a rebellious schoolboy, and a brilliant young atheist. All along, he was haunted by a piercing, bittersweet longing he called “Joy,” a desire no earthly pleasure could satisfy. In Surprised by Joy, Lewis follows that longing from his childhood in Belfast to his hard-won conversion at Oxford. He shows how his lifelong search for its source led him, one reluctant step at a time, to God. With wit, candor, and luminous prose, Lewis explores:

  • His mother’s early death and the loss that drove him from faith
  • His lonely, harsh years at English boarding schools
  • The Norse myths and “Northernness” that awakened his imagination
  • His service in the trenches of World War I
  • The friendships, books, and debates that dismantled his atheism

Surprised by Joy is more than a memoir. It is an honest, intellectually serious account of doubt and belief, and a key to understanding the mind behind Narnia, The Screwtape Letters, and Mere Christianity. Lewis’s idea that our deepest longings point toward God still speaks to seekers, skeptics, and believers alike.

This book is for C. S. Lewis fans, readers of Christian memoir and spiritual autobiography, and anyone wrestling with questions of faith, meaning, and the desire for something more. Readers who treasured Augustine’s Confessions or Thomas Merton’s The Seven Storey Mountain will find in Surprised by Joy a companion classic of conversion and the search for God.

C. S. Lewis, the beloved author of Mere Christianity and The Chronicles of Narnia, tells the remarkable true story of his journey from atheism to Christian faith in this classic spiritual autobiography. Long before he became one of the most influential Christian writers of the twentieth century, ...

Discover more

About the author

Clive Staples Lewis (1898–1963) was one of the intellectual giants of the twentieth century and arguably one of the most influential writers of his day. He was a Fellow and Tutor in English Literature at Oxford University until 1954, when he was unanimously elected to the Chair of Medieval and Renaissance Literature at Cambridge University, a position he held until his retirement. He wrote more than thirty books, allowing him to reach a vast audience, and his works continue to attract thousands of new readers every year. His most distinguished and popular accomplishments include Out of the Silent Planet, The Great Divorce, The Screwtape Letters, and the universally acknowledged classics in The Chronicles of Narnia. To date, the Narnia books have sold over 100 million copies and have been transformed into three major motion pictures.

Clive Staples Lewis (1898–1963) was one of the intellectual giants of the twentieth century and arguably one of the most influential writers of his day. He was a Fellow and Tutor in English Literature at Oxford University until 1954, when he was unanimously elected to the Chair of Medieval and Re...

Listening information

Smartphones and tablets
Install the Google Play Books app for Android and iPad/iPhone. It syncs automatically with your account and allows you to read online or offline wherever you are.
Laptops and computers
You can read books purchased on Google Play using your computer's web browser.