“Nobody writes about family secrets with the grace, compassion, and intrigue of Courtney Sheinmel.” —Leila Sales, author of This Song Will Save Your Life

Fans of I Was Here by Gayle Forman and Far from the Tree by Robin Benway will be floored by this heartbreaking yet uplifting teen novel about a grieving girl who follows a mysterious list across the country after her older sister’s death.

Sloane Weber is devastated when her older sister dies by suicide. Talley was a bright light who made everyone want to step closer. Why had she made that unthinkable choice?

The only clue Talley left behind for Sloane is a puzzle—a list of random places and names, along with the phone number of a boy named Adam, who lives in California and claims he didn’t know Talley.

Sloane heads west, enlists Adam’s help, and together they search for answers. But while Sloane is drawn to Adam, she can’t shake the feeling that he’s hiding something. Is Sloane ready to learn the truth—about Adam, her sister, or the secrets her family has been hiding for years?

A Heartbreaking Mystery: Talley was the bright light in Sloane’s life. To understand her death, Sloane must follow the cryptic list of clues she left behind, even if the truth shatters her.
An Emotional Road Trip: The list sends Sloane on a cross-country journey from Minnesota to California, chasing down the ghosts of a sister she may never have truly known.
Unforgettable Sisterhood: A powerful and poignant exploration of the unbreakable bond between sisters and the pain of suicide loss, perfect for readers who love emotionally complex YA contemporary fiction.
A Complicated Friendship: Her only guide is Adam, a boy whose number was on the list but who claims he didn't know Talley. Can Sloane trust him when every instinct says he’s hiding something?